Clarity

It’s taken me some time to write this post. Just wasn’t sure where it would go so I’m just going to stop overthinking everything and just let my fingers do the typing.

We just wrapped up a hectic week with midweek events, running on NO sleep, on edge, stressed out…near tears and breakdowns more times than I can count. Thank you God for my parents that have an amazing sixth sense, and were able to change last minute plans to come and help us both recharge. Mom and Dad–if you happen to take a look at this, there just aren’t any words except I love you both. That’s all.

So after everyhing is said and done, we were gearing up for my son, Spencer’s first day at school and I can’t even begin to tell you the emotions that ran through both my husband and I.  Here I was, with a laundry list of my own issues, and everything suddenly became very clear for me, and yup, the clouds parted. And that inner voice, crept up, reminding me as to why me and husband work our butts off and why we do what we do. It’s so I can wrap my arms around Spencer and smother him with more kisses than he will ever want. It’s to see that goofy smile of his and send him off to school. It’s so he can one day look back and see everything his parents did for him and know that there isn’t anything he can’t do in life. And although life may be seem particularly tough at times, nothing will ever be important than family and the love shared between all of us.

Spence-y, I love you so much and I feel so amazingly proud to be you mama and cannot wait to start this journey with you, my silly, little goof ball.

And my breakdown when we said goodbye. My husband pushed me out of the classroom before I completely lost it..hee…hee.