Taking a Moment…

So as you can see I’ve taken some time to hold off on blogging.  Since I’ve always been one to maintain total honesty here, in my blog, I can just say that it’s taken me some time to adjust to my schedule, transitioning to working Chic Sweets full time from home, and also taking care of my toddler boys and Baby Preston.

My life feels so very different now and part of my avoidance in blogging has been not quite knowing how to put everything in words. It seems like just yesterday my life was quite different. I was “the working  mom,” dropping boys off at their daycare by 8:00AM, an hour commute to work, home by 6:30PM (if I was lucky), hug the kids, make dinner, then bed. Most nights as I kissed my boys and tucked them in bed, I would be okay. Other days, I would drive home through my tears and  into my husband’s arms, wondering how it was possible that my kids spent more time with everyone else other than their own mother. And on and on the cycle would go…good days…bad days…but when I became pregnant with Baby P, my gut was telling me that it was time for a change, that I needed the change whether I was ready for it or not.

But working from home? With Baby Preston? Could I even do that? Am I built for that?

When you’ve spent so many years, going through the same routine it honestly felt daunting at first. With my other two children, they were already going to their “special school” at 8 weeks old. Now to imagine that the same wouldn’t happen with Baby P was a little scary. When my leave was officially up and I made the decision to stay at home, I was nervous and unsure. The first few days felt a little unreal…working at my desk…turning around to see my son sleeping or playing in his swing…then going to pick up the boys from school. It’s exhausting–undoubtedly. But the constant emotion I feel is happiness. Happy because a year ago I would dream about being in this spot and today, here I am. Are some days not so great? Yup, of course and those icky feelings of self doubt creep up and take over. And as you can see from my blog-hiatus, I’m still adjusting and I’m allowing myself the time to adjust without beating myself up. I’ll get there…soon enough.

Also never to far from my thoughts are the millions of mamas still out there, still getting up at 8am…going to work…coming home…tucking in their child late at night. Those mamas are never too far from my prayers as I was there just a few months ago.

 I know exactly how you feel times a thousand. Believe me, your child loves you  even when you are at work, burning the midnight oil. I’m here to be the little voice and remind you that YOU are doing the BEST you can for yourself, your family and of course, your career–what YOU are passionate about.

So there you have it. A little piece of where I am today. Hoping to catch up with some blogging goodness soon, but if it takes a little longer. Well…you’ll know why!

Happy days everyone!

Natalie